well... work has kept me from blogging.. but seriously... i dun realli like blogging... well i am feeling a bit lost today... so i tot perhaps blogging will help to alleviate my suffering... picking up from where i left off previously... yeah... A's are over... mentioned that it was very very fortunate for me to get in... yeah... Very true... compared to the high flyers that populate the entire med fac... yeah... i am just a nobody....

Many things have changed... my life has also started to change... this year is definitely a roller-coaster ride for me... I began to work in a hospital... i went to teach in a tuition centre... then went on to teach in my alma mater in a short stint... then shaved my bloody head bald in the army... seen my bunkmates bullied ( one even beaten) by ang gong fuckers...yes they are scum!... praying hard to get out of army soon... which eventually i did... went thru applications to uni... interviews... portfolios... trying to impress... all this dog-eat-dog stuff...i seriously dislike!... then getting into med... which wasn the best experience that i had...

it was sort of reality check... and it was harsh... really harsh...

at least i learnt more bout myself... guess i m too reserved... which may compromise my everyday life in the new environment.... hmmm... well... maybe i will console myself to just stay happy as much as i can... dun wish for the unwishable.... but cherish what i have with me now...

Life has changed for my friends... the ones that i have no regrets being with in my whole life... Darren, Di Hui, Sebast, Xin An... they entered NS except for dihui.. and so that resulted in less contact... dihui is busy with his uni in NTU... Huimin has found her partner... and so i m the only guy in left... of course there is still Angeline... my beloved... whom i really want to thk her for standing by me all this time...during the darkest times... maybe that is what life is about... with friends...

but... cant really say the same for now in my new env... maybe time will change things... but just maybe thought that... not to trust the hope...

studying is real bad... trying to keep up all the time... but it just snowballs...

shld have cherished my friends more last time...

life in my family has kinda been a little uncomfortable... recently...

well... standing at the edge of the cliff... all i need ( not need ) is a little push